circa 2003

we are SO attractive here.

haha

i guess change can be good sometimes.

my heart:

i wouldn't think that deciding on a college would be such a difficult and heartwrenching decision. seriously. this is, in a sense, breaking my heart. it sounds silly, huh? well one would think that it would be easy. well, it just is not all that easy for me. you see, my heart is in minnesota. as much as i would like to think i hate this COLD state, i do not. i love it. everything. my family and my friends, they are here. but, i want to go there. more than anything. through studying the Word, constant prayer, and encouragement from the people closest to me, i know that the master's college is where i should go. where i need to be. but yet i have not been able to come to a final decision. i'm hoping i'll get to the school in april and i will just know whether i should pick northwestern or master's. we shall see. alyssa just "knew" when she saw hillsdale, and it was by far the best decision she ever made. i hope, moreso pray, for the same.

lovelovelove,
megs

ps-i got in!!!

it's true





:)

hey wait, let me know!!!

i want to know if i got into the mater's.
because there are cheap flights!!! and my mom and i wanna visit in april.
butidon'tknowyet!!!
and it would be silly to get tickets before i'm admitted.

as andrea would say: "ugh...ugh...ugh"


eek!

i'm really fine.

i had a dream;
it was perfect.

you were perfect,
and i was okay.
yes, i was finally good enough.
you said to me: "i would not change one thing about you. you're beautiful tonight."


how nice.
how very nice.

but then i woke up;
i had to remind myself to separate fact from fiction (i hate doing that).
knowing full well, that i could never be okay in your mind.

but it's okay.
really.

it is.

(i would say i understand....

...but i don't)