because i think you will probably read this:

you are the nicest boy ever and i am so blessed to have you in my life.
i can't get enough of you.
you say you are blessed,
well dear, i am blessed beyond measure with you in my life.

beautiful big sis.

weddings are so fun. they should happen more often. i love my seester.

i've been spending all my time just thinking about you;

i don't know what to do-i think i'm falling for you.

so i never really understood what it was like to think about someone all day long until a few weeks ago

[and it gets more intense every day].

the Lord is good, He gives us the desires of our hearts, so wait on Him. most assuredly it is worth it.

laugh.

highly treasured.

"the kingdom of heaven is like a treasure hidden in the field, which a man hid and found again; and from joy over it he goes and sells all that he has and buys that field."
-matthew 13:44

Christ is worth selling and giving everything up for Him.
I've counted the cost,
I've done the math,
and You are worthy Lord.
worthy of all of me,
for all of my days I now
stand to bring You praise.

Empty me daily,
so I can treasure You purely and immensely.

lucky girl.

i should rephrase that,
blessed girl.
beyond words.

and someday i will sit down and write it all out.

joyous.

"Samuel said to the people, 'Do not fear. You have committed all this evil, yet do not turn aside from following the LORD, but serve the LORD with all your heart. You must not turn aside, for then you would go after futile things which can not profit or deliver, because they are futile. For the LORD will not abandon His people on account of His great name, because the LORD has been pleased to make you a people for Himself. Moreover, as for me, far be it from me that I should sin against the LORD by ceasing to pray for you; but I will instruct you in the good and right way. Only fear the LORD and serve Him in truth with all your heart; for consider what great things He has done for you."

-1 Samuel 12:20-24

sister.

i thank the Lord for you.

the hard stuff.

"Wouldn't it be amazing if Christianity was really like this? In a place of spiritual battle, daily discipline, the development of character through trial and error, patience, perseverance, and testing, we would have...the world. By simply following a set of steps, rules, and guidelines we would find that we pretty much have it sewn.

That is what we humans really want.

A life that works out great for me.

But the most difficult thing about Christianity is that it doesn't have anything to do with me. What I mean is that we are called to lose ourselves in order to find ourselves. We give our lives in humility and servitude to Jesus, and He in return gives us eternal life and salvation, along with a life of joy and peace as long as we remain in Him. But along the way we must put others before ourselves. And we will find meaning and contentment not in self-actualization, but in giving ourselves in submission to Him and to one another in fellowship. These are all fundamental concepts to a Biblical approach to living."

From the article, "A Perfect Life, Part I,
by Andrew Schwab

So I'll ask Your forgiveness with every breath,

if there was no way into God, i would never have laid in this grave of a body for so long, dear.

kept on repeat.

My unrivaled King, You speak poetry
With Your Word of love and stars above

My unrivaled King, You hold everything
Worlds were made for You, to sing of Your truth

There's a name I love to hear,
Music to the sinner's ear
It shakes the earth and draws me closer to You

My unrivaled King, I was made for You
Give me strength to stand and forfeit all I have

Jesus, Wonder of life
Jesus, Name above all

Unrivaled by Lovelite.
Here.