lovelies:

i finally made the switch.

find me over here: meaganlinn.wordpress.com

come, everyone.

"the Spirit and the bride say, "come." and let the one who hears say, "come." and let the one who is thirsty come; let the one who desires take the water of life without price."

-revelation 22:17.

currently:

*5 chapters of my christian doctrine book for theology class. (4 credit classes crammed into 2.5 weeks are always a blast.)

*iced americano. (because i get a discount, to keep me awake, and for good measure.)

*lecrae.

*my body craves sleep- (on a REAL bed.)

*feeling blessed for even the little things.

*wondering where tape is in my new house so i can tape my piggy bank back together.

*missing family, friends, and zachary.

*oh yeah, back to those 5 chapters...

spring banquet 2011.

zachary and me :) one year to the date of our first walk :)

my favorite couple and some of my favorite people, luke and jenny :)

me, jenny, her roomie carly. lovely ladies.

the whole group.

(nude colored heels are my new favorite thing.)

lifeblood:

this is what will get me through the next week. via, i owe every moment i am awake to you. okay, well not really, butyougetthepicture.

on laughing-

jess and i don't understand you.

it's may 5th;

finals are near.

how are you playing games?

arranging tennis tournaments?

enjoying life so lightheartedly?

and here we are-

stuck revising papers until all

hours of the night.

[but the end is insight, my dear.]

i remember los angeles.

(but we are not friends anymore.)

[pretty darn excited]

to be living with this gal and her lovely roomies this summer.

three papers & one article//two days.

can i go crawl in a hole and cry now? oh wait, time to get ready for work.

(twelve days until freedom.)

motivation? hello?

nilla wafers//bellarive//coffee//fireplace//rain//two hours to finish this paper

//philippians 4:13//

our lives are but a speck in time.

"vanity of vanities, says the Preacher. vanity of vanities! all is vanity. what does man gain by all the toil at which he toils under the sun? a generation goes, a generation comes, but the earth remains forever. the sun rises, and the sun goes down, and hastens to the place where it rises. the wind blows to the south and goes around to the north; around and around goes the wind, and on it's circuits the wind returns. all streams run to the sea, but the sea is not full; to the place where the streams flow, there they flow again.

all things are full of weariness; a man cannot utter it; the eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear filled with hearing.

what has been is what will be, and what has been done is what will be done, and there is nothing new under the sun. is there a thing of which it is said, "see, this is new"? it has been already in the ages before us. there is no remembrance of former things, nor will there be any remembrance of later things yet to be among those who come after."

-ecclesiastes 1:2-11

upon learning (and struggling through) so many things as of late, i have come to the realization that there are very few things in this life that should captivate us. as children of God, the living true God, we should be enamored with Him and finding all of our satisfaction in Him. the enemy has brilliantly put on display good things in front of us, and these things take our attention away from the Lord. is saving up for a new computer/dress/movie/outfit/etc a bad thing? absolutely not. however, the more and more i find myself yearning for more of Him, the more and more i realize how completely in love with myself and the (stupid) things i have surrounded myself with. fortunately, our God is a God who loves, pursues, and chases after His children. selfishly (really sinfully) i want me! but God wants me to make war on sin and run after Him. the things of the Lord should be the only things to hold my captivation. maybe this little blog has one reader, maybe none, but that really is okay. the name change is really between the Lord and i, but i wanted to express a little bit of my heart.

and lastly:

2 corinthians 10:5&6-

"we destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ, being ready to punish every disobedience, when your obedience is complete."

this world has become strangely dim.

You and I have need of the strongest spell that can be found to wake us from the evil enchantment of worldliness.

-c.s. lewis

we were meant for more (so much more)

i'm discontent chasing the wind

i want to feel more than air on my skin

like the tide, feelings come and go

here today, gone tomorrow

i want love, i want You

so take this beaten heart

and let it beat for You

i'm scared, yeah i'm scared

only You know now i feel

when i say i don't want to feel anything but love

true Love, true Love

watch me bloom cause soon i'll wither

but Your love lasts forever

like the sun, life is beautiful

when i rise and when i fall

[chasing the wind-

(the ember days.)]

i just realized that-

what i've been up to, picture style.

barista again.

free soy lattes of sorts are back in my life.

new flowery sheer pretty shirt from forever 21 via a gift card from a lovely friend.

(only 11.8, that's right!)

oh, and my hair is still getting longer.

and browner.

yes, i believe i just made that word up.

now off to loads and loads of school work. i could get stressed about my eighteen credits/three jobs/lack of sleep/brokenness (spiritually and especially financially), but i have found that paul was right in saying that it is far better to rest in Christ and to be content.

"rejoice in the Lord always."

but i'm an english major, so it's okay.

as i become more and more immersed in my classes i have come to realize one significant discovery: english majors love themselves. i know, i know, that sounds terrible. i am an english major, after all. let me explain. we all (because of our nature) love ourselves. too much. however, i have come to find that in my major in particular, there is a heavy emphasis on self. i have grown to think about myself far too often lately. (and i hate that part of me.) i am told to reflect, write down my emotions, find a new and beautiful way to tell a story of myself; my work is about me. i am so sick of myself. i am tired of self-deprecating memoirs where i am the antagonist and also the protagonist. i guess profound writing is solely based on making it human, real, raw. if that's the case, then i will need to accept the fact that i will never be a good writer; i won't be in the hippest literary journal and i probably won't hold my breath waiting for a poem to get published. i would much rather write about Christ; about what He is to me. i would give up my life to get the chance to preach His goodness to the world. He is supreme and He is beautiful. (He is the only good in me.) if this means i am of no literary merit i am okay with that. if this means no one will read a single thing i have written, well then i suppose i am okay with that, as well. the more i write (and struggle to produce anything of any academic value), the more i realize something far more important than a daily assignment.

[ i am not made for this world. ]

galatians 6:14-18

"but far be it from me to boast except in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, by which the world has been crucified to me, and i to the world. for neither circumcision counts for anything, nor uncircumcision, but a new creation. and as for all who walk by this rule, peace an mercy be upon them, and upon the Israel of God. from now on let no one cause me trouble, for i bear on my body the marks of Jesus. the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with your spirit, brothers. amen."

"i open my eyes oh Lord, to see all the things You've done

i open my heart oh God, to feel Your unfailing love

i open my all to You, all my life for Your glory shown

i open up my soul to You alone, come make yourself at home

and i'll give all i have left to give

cause it's everything i am, Lord

and this life i'll spend it all for You

i'll waste it all on You

i offer up my mind, to You, i long for the truth You know

i offer up my feet to You, they'll walk straight on the path You show

i offer up my time to You, so keep me and hold me still

i offer up my hands to You, Lord use them to do Your will

let Your Spirit take me over God,

cause it's all i'll ever need, yeah You're all i'll ever need Lord

receive this life an offering God

cause i've spent it all on You, yeah i'll spend it all on You God"

this can be so hard sometimes.

"He must increase, but i must decrease."

-john 3:30

spring has arrived and our winter depression has left

i was going to write something else, something meaningful.

but, then my roommate and i realized that TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY OF SPRING, and in a state like mine, there is much rejoicing for this little truth.

maybe i'll come back later (if my literary analysis on "the yellow wall-paper" finishes up and allows me to), and share a little bit of my heart. but for now, here's a little sweet tidbit of truth:

"We must continually focus and firmly place our faith in Jesus Christ— not a "prayer meeting" Jesus Christ, or a "book" Jesus Christ, but the New Testament Jesus Christ, who is God Incarnate, and who ought to strike us dead at His feet."

- Oswald Chambers

lovely places i must go:

dearest lili,

let's add this trip to our grand list of "bungalow buddy" trips that never really happen.

barcelona, spain

the southern france countryside (obviously)

florence, italy where we will look at fancy artwork and eat our weight in gelato.

yesss.

dear rudy maxa,

i love you and your smart travels. i love that you are on channel two (the best channel in the cities), and i love that you are taking amanda and i through amsterdam right now. how did you even come to know my dreams of visiting amsterdam, anne frank house and all? you are one smart guy. i love that it is spring break and i can actually spend some time with you. i'll see you next wednesday, which is my next free afternoon.

love,

megs.