Saturday, December 26, 2009
Thursday, December 17, 2009
rejoice.
soooo many good things are coming up.
let me just tell you.
*my 20th birthday, duh. birthdays always top the list.
*working at the bank the first two weeks of break (aka-drinking coffee and chatting),
*followed by samantha's wedding where i FINALLY get to where my dress,
*which after everything has been cleaned up i will then catch a plane to california,
where i will spend sunday-wendesday with my bunna,
*possibly see eric!
*get back home, pack,
shop,
*move in to the dorms!!!!!
*definitely most excited for that last one...new chapter :)
*already 'met' the girls on facebook and they seem like total sweethearts...they better be....
i have been praying for the right roommates since october.
*God is constant, I am not.
*God is good all the time; all the time, God is good.
"...rejoice and be glad,
for the LORD has done great things."
-Joel 2:21
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Monday, December 14, 2009
confessions//lessons learned
*i love cheesy made-for-tv christmas movies. i do. justcanthelpit.
*every guy i meet at school i think: "maybe we would work...", and that is because i am terribly impatient.
*one should never attempt to see how far they can get once the gas light comes on.
*i HATE it when people mess up your/you're...i actually get really upset, not good, i know.
*shane&shane's new album is incredible. it will be played day in and day out for some time now.
*i love order, but i feel like my current mindset is chaotic/distressed/irrational. i am basically a contradiction, this i know.
*you can try as hard as you want to ingore the Lord working in your heart and push Him away, but you cannot run. you'll just needlessly complicate your life and possibly end up brokenhearted along the way. i would know.
*the Lord forgives all and loves and and is the definition of goodness; His grace does not, however, give us freedom to run around doing whatever we want [for we bear His name].
*along with hallmark/abc family movies, i love wizards of waverly place. truth.
*i love northwestern. the school has its issues and concerns, but i'm ready for a fight.
*ready for the contradiction? sometimes i can't believe the scholarship/opportunity i passed up at the master's. but i am supposed to be here, working here.
*i WILL be on 'are you smarter than a fifth grader?' because i am and i can win! i can!
*all my pants are falling off. not that that is a confession/lesson learned, but i just thought of it because i had to grab a pair of alyssa's jeans (weird. but it's okay, kim from work promised to fatten me back up over break, ha).
*california stole two of my dear dear friends and i want them back!!!
*God is constant, i am not.
*i judge before i offer grace (but i'm working on it. or moreso, God is working on it, but i'm obstinate).
*that reminds me, i love the word obstinate. makes me think of my bunna :)
*love is not a screwed up, terrible, selfish, torturous, painful endeavor. lust maybe. selfishness maybe. pride maybe. but pure, true love does not stir up those emotions. honest love doesn't make you want to smash the mirror infront of you and throw it out the window. but a self-loving attitude will do that. it will ruin you. so love as Christ did, not how the rest of us do. and may those who claim Christ really start to show it, all of the time, not just when it is easy. because loving people at their worst is much for more difficult and displays much more grace than loving when everything is perfect. my resolution. not new years', because it's too important to continue to put it off. that i know.
*i think we should all just grow up and take responsibility for our actions.
*no one is worth compromising our standards/convictions/theology. i would know that, as well.
*i love every single one of you.
*every guy i meet at school i think: "maybe we would work...", and that is because i am terribly impatient.
*one should never attempt to see how far they can get once the gas light comes on.
*i HATE it when people mess up your/you're...i actually get really upset, not good, i know.
*shane&shane's new album is incredible. it will be played day in and day out for some time now.
*i love order, but i feel like my current mindset is chaotic/distressed/irrational. i am basically a contradiction, this i know.
*you can try as hard as you want to ingore the Lord working in your heart and push Him away, but you cannot run. you'll just needlessly complicate your life and possibly end up brokenhearted along the way. i would know.
*the Lord forgives all and loves and and is the definition of goodness; His grace does not, however, give us freedom to run around doing whatever we want [for we bear His name].
*along with hallmark/abc family movies, i love wizards of waverly place. truth.
*i love northwestern. the school has its issues and concerns, but i'm ready for a fight.
*ready for the contradiction? sometimes i can't believe the scholarship/opportunity i passed up at the master's. but i am supposed to be here, working here.
*i WILL be on 'are you smarter than a fifth grader?' because i am and i can win! i can!
*all my pants are falling off. not that that is a confession/lesson learned, but i just thought of it because i had to grab a pair of alyssa's jeans (weird. but it's okay, kim from work promised to fatten me back up over break, ha).
*california stole two of my dear dear friends and i want them back!!!
*God is constant, i am not.
*i judge before i offer grace (but i'm working on it. or moreso, God is working on it, but i'm obstinate).
*that reminds me, i love the word obstinate. makes me think of my bunna :)
*love is not a screwed up, terrible, selfish, torturous, painful endeavor. lust maybe. selfishness maybe. pride maybe. but pure, true love does not stir up those emotions. honest love doesn't make you want to smash the mirror infront of you and throw it out the window. but a self-loving attitude will do that. it will ruin you. so love as Christ did, not how the rest of us do. and may those who claim Christ really start to show it, all of the time, not just when it is easy. because loving people at their worst is much for more difficult and displays much more grace than loving when everything is perfect. my resolution. not new years', because it's too important to continue to put it off. that i know.
*i think we should all just grow up and take responsibility for our actions.
*no one is worth compromising our standards/convictions/theology. i would know that, as well.
*i love every single one of you.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
dear westley james,
hey buddy,
you are only a mere month old, but i love you so much already. i could cry and cry forever when i think about how good God is and how wonderfully He has been working. you are such a blessing, little boy. you are, in some strange way, the best thing that has ever happened to your momma. she is the best ever. we have been great friends for a while, but we're getting closer and closer and i am so thankful for her friendship, love, guidance, laughter, etc. when you get older and can actually read this, know that i have loved you from day one...before you even entered this world. please be loving to your mom, she's a doll and she wants what is best for you, so listen to her!! and i'm an unofficial/practially official auntie and if you start acting up, i can promise you i will be there to kick your cute little butt back into shape. so smile and laugh and keep on dreaming during church...because it makes your mom and i laugh so very hard.
love you so much little boy,
thanks for coming.
i cannot wait to watch you grow up.
love,
megs
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