confessions//lessons learned

*i love cheesy made-for-tv christmas movies. i do. justcanthelpit.
*every guy i meet at school i think: "maybe we would work...", and that is because i am terribly impatient.
*one should never attempt to see how far they can get once the gas light comes on.
*i HATE it when people mess up your/you're...i actually get really upset, not good, i know.
*shane&shane's new album is incredible. it will be played day in and day out for some time now.
*i love order, but i feel like my current mindset is chaotic/distressed/irrational. i am basically a contradiction, this i know.
*you can try as hard as you want to ingore the Lord working in your heart and push Him away, but you cannot run. you'll just needlessly complicate your life and possibly end up brokenhearted along the way. i would know.
*the Lord forgives all and loves and and is the definition of goodness; His grace does not, however, give us freedom to run around doing whatever we want [for we bear His name].
*along with hallmark/abc family movies, i love wizards of waverly place. truth.
*i love northwestern. the school has its issues and concerns, but i'm ready for a fight.
*ready for the contradiction? sometimes i can't believe the scholarship/opportunity i passed up at the master's. but i am supposed to be here, working here.
*i WILL be on 'are you smarter than a fifth grader?' because i am and i can win! i can!
*all my pants are falling off. not that that is a confession/lesson learned, but i just thought of it because i had to grab a pair of alyssa's jeans (weird. but it's okay, kim from work promised to fatten me back up over break, ha).
*california stole two of my dear dear friends and i want them back!!!
*God is constant, i am not.
*i judge before i offer grace (but i'm working on it. or moreso, God is working on it, but i'm obstinate).
*that reminds me, i love the word obstinate. makes me think of my bunna :)
*love is not a screwed up, terrible, selfish, torturous, painful endeavor. lust maybe. selfishness maybe. pride maybe. but pure, true love does not stir up those emotions. honest love doesn't make you want to smash the mirror infront of you and throw it out the window. but a self-loving attitude will do that. it will ruin you. so love as Christ did, not how the rest of us do. and may those who claim Christ really start to show it, all of the time, not just when it is easy. because loving people at their worst is much for more difficult and displays much more grace than loving when everything is perfect. my resolution. not new years', because it's too important to continue to put it off. that i know.
*i think we should all just grow up and take responsibility for our actions.
*no one is worth compromising our standards/convictions/theology. i would know that, as well.
*i love every single one of you.