everyday=

*but not the caffeine free kind because that would just be ridiculous.

happy-

so very happy.

consumed.

scripture describes God as a consuming God, as a God who is life-fulfilling and deserving of His children's affection. He is worthy, oh so worthy of our lives and so much more. deuteronomy 4:23-25 states that: "so watch yourselves, that you do not forget the covenant of the LORD your God which He made with you, and make yourselves a graven image in the form of everything against which the LORD your God has commanded you. for the LORD your God is aconsuming fire, a jealous God.

there is a lot more i could write about this, but my words will not do it justice. if i could say one thing it would be this: we are all far too consumed with everything else around us that we have forgotten to be consumed with the One person who deserves our minds' attention.

contending for You also includes

loving You

and

honoring You

and

adequately representing You

and

responding to Your working

(not reacting)

and

satan may not be able

to

steal your soul,

but

he sure can distract you.

*this is NOT written to a specific person, more so every believer out there, especially myself*

ps-

i dream of being daring enough to have hair like this. wow. incredible.

"time to go"

"when i was young You waited patiently for me to grow;

Your smiling down, Your hand in mind, but i didn't know.

a voice i'd heard all my life locked away in my insides;

now whispering, "it's time to go",

so i told all i know goodbye.

You told me that You don't change when everything around me did,

and when i ran away You said there's no trespass You won't forgive.

sometimes it feels like when i was small; the way you still smile at me.

and after all these years You're still the One that i thought You would be.

the world says that You are someone You are not.

to know You better i've had to forget [some of the things] i've been taught.

and if the whole world decides to turn its back on you,

i'll be right here because they don't know You the way that i do.

i once had lots of family who all have gone away;

the storm came down and shook our house- they decided not to stay.

they feared the wind and rain and fled for their lives, but i didn't care.

i stayed and waited for the storm to pass; i knew you were there. "

tell all that you know goodbye. it is time to go and live for Him. that is all i can say.

ramblings.

so i realized as i was packing my bag to leave that i cannot leave campus, i co-lead a prayer group with a few girls my hall on thursday nights...oops...good thing i remembered that one and yet, i cannot believe i forgot that, haha. also, i have not eaten dinner yet so now i am watching the office with my roommate (aka-the sweetest and nicest girl EVER) until the pizza that zachary (the cutest most handsome man EVER) arrives. after diner and prayer maybe i will head out. i miss blogging so much and writing for enjoyment, that is for sure. ALL of my 18 credits next semester involve writing (i guess that is what i get for being an english major, huh?), and i do not feel near smart enough to take all of the classes i have next semester. including: 4000 level lit theory at 7:50 AM (i have an 8 am class this semester so i suppose ten minutes earlier is not that bad, but still, just sounds so darn early!) and the other two days of the week i have a 8:35 AM class. if you do not hear from me january-may it is not you, it is me. sorry to say that. hahaha. also, i am drinking icky peppermint tea. icky because it was mixed in a bag with cinnamon tea and though those two kinds are my two favorite kinds of tea, they are terrible after sitting in a bag together for so long. they are leftover from me free tea mark-outs from when i worked at caribou and though they were free, i cannot bring myself to throw the tea away (one because i have a grandmother who grew up in the depression and that would be just wasteful and two because i am pretty darn poor and do not have a budget to pay for things i already have at home). with that said, after this cup i only have one left! maybe i will just suck it up and drink the other cup tonight and then throw away that darn bag!! this is such a run-on paragraph, but i am far too lazy to edit it around and make it all proper and such. i do enough things in MLA format every other day of my life and my blog is one place i can write freely and ramble and just talk nonsense. oh, and our hallways smell like natural gas and rumor has it that there are some fire marshal men in suits checking it out. what would YOU grab if your place was burning down and you had to run out? i would grab my bible, journal, laptop, and television. oh, and my new glasses because i really like them and they are expensive. pizza is here, got to go.

check this out, ladies: my hair is getting SO long for me! as some of you know, i recently got a job at a smaller, upscale hair salon (just doing receptionist stuff) and i get my hair cut AND colored for FREEEE! however, it is just one lady working and we are booked until mid-JANUARY and my hair is driving me absolutely bonkers! this is the longest i have gone without coloring it since probably 8th grade (that is roughly seven years folks) and come to think of it, it is probably growing like a weed because it is actually healthy now. whoa, imagine what a little tlc can do. anyways, i NEED to trim it up because i am fed up...think my boss will notice if i get a little trim? hopefully not. i can wait to color it (why not, it is free with her!), but i need to cut it. blah blah blah, this is becoming far to centered on me. see you later ladies. i love you all. time for pizza with the nicest boy around :D.

love,

m.

stressed.

this is how i feel right now. going to a coffee shop now until i finish some stuff up.

seven/thirty.

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.

well, i can honestly saw that Jesus Christ coming to earth and dying for me has made my life worth living. i mess this up a lot and don't always represent Him adequately, you see. i have this huge tendency to put myself first (don't we all?). all i can ask is that you would, please, not look at my life...i am praying for consistency, but in doing so i am learning i have to give up a lot. however, He is gracious and loving and does not give up on His children. can i get an amen? also, romans 5:8- "but God demonstrates His love towards us in that, while we were yet sinners Christ died for us." i think i went over my sentence limit, but it's the Bible so it's okay.

six/thirty.

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

i hope i never have to bury any of my future children. seriously, i just want to be a mom and that would break my heart to lose any of my children. oh, and i hope i never live far from my sister...because if she's in new york i'll be there, and if she's in texas, well i'll follow her there. my sister is the one family member i have to be near; unless, of course, she stays where we are now...eww...can't do that one- too cold and too icky. haha.

love my hall.

nostalgia night 2010//"i will survive/stayin alive"//yes.

five/thirty.

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

i hope to travel the world and see rome and pisa and london and salisbury and bethlehem and stockhom and oslo and paris and dublin and saint petersburg and prauge and berlin and vienna and amsterdam and the secret annex and so many more places. i am not sure if i will make it to all of those places and more (probably not), but i do hope i get to at least a few.

happy friday!

love,

m.

four/thirty.

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.

this one is a tough one because i really don't have anything i need to forgive someone for. i feel like a lot of the times when someone is in need of forgiveness it's not all their fault and usually the other person (myself) is at fault, too. with that said, i try and figure things out right away and not let things build up. keep word try. i have failed at this recently, but God is good and gracious and others have forgiven me when i did not deserve it (because really i don't deserve anything, right?).

ps- i just thought of this one: i need to forgive the Jerk (yes, that's Jerk with a capital J) who flung open their car door and dented the side of my new car earlier this fall. but it is just a car and it drives just fine and you can barely see the dent and it's smallish and if you squint it just looks like a reflection of the sun, not a dent. i am so over it (almost).